Why don't you try to do something good right now? just get your ass out of your bed and start doing anything, no matter what it is, your chance to change yourself is right around the corner, or will you just stand still staring nowhere? Words can be used to make a different, in the same way, cam be used to make you unhappy, try to choose the right questions, doing so, you will realize that what you're living now is just a big lie.